a very loooong time since my last post (which is just a 'say hello' post though hehe). I even don't know why I started blogging because I never felt express my filling in an article where people can read it freely is my thing. I am a very introvert and extrovert person in someway. So, I think start writing a blog is a progress for me, yes? Well, I hope so heheh. In this (not so) first post, I want to share my feeling about something that maybe a really boring or cheesy theme. Guess what? yes, it is love (sigh).
Short story, I've dated my boyfriend since 2010 and been having a long distance relaionship since 2011 till now because he studied in UGM which is in Jogjakarta and I'm in Unpad, Bandung. But now, since it's his dream to become a police, since last year he (finally) could be the Police Academy student in Semarang, or so called taruna AKPOL. Since we started dating, we're never really being a 'normal' couple. I don't know what this called about so I'm just put that 'normal' word heheh. I can say we've been long distance couple since we started dating because we're never really being like other couples who always together at least 5/24 a day, who can always count on her/his boyf/girlf whenever he/she needs. We went to different high school then, and now we're having the LDR thing and even come worse because now I only can communicate with my boyf on Sunday and just through phone or chatting in just 3-5 hours. No more skype, or even meeting up until he gets his day off.
But by the way don't get me wrong, I'm really really proud of my boyfriend. He is a really tough person. Failed 2 times at AKPOL never made him give up. He even get motivated from that. I'm also not complaining about my boyf though. I just, you know that even something you really love about can gets really sucks sometime, right? Well, I think that's what I'm feeling right now. I really really feel envy when I see all of my friends with their boyf/girlf everyday or even everytime, in real life or in social media. It just sucks to see other people can share sooo many times with their lover, and really really sucks that they're still missing their lover after not seeing them in one day! one day!!!! What about me? Okay, I've met my boyfriend last week, but in at least 2,5 years I never met my boyfriend like every weeks or every days. I even didn't meet him in 5 months and without any communications too when he's in quarantine in his first year in AKPOL. I just wanna feel how is the feeling to have your boyf next to you every time, when you can call or text him to come everytime you want. Hhhhh sorry for this angryness. Not a really good start posting, huh? I'm sorry I'm sorry, will trying to make some happiness feeling on my next post maybe (if it will be :p) heheh. And last, for you who is (maybe) cleaning up his shoes for not making any mistakes or being punished the next day, I miss you. Not just miss you because we're apart, but because we're never been so close for a long time, I miss your present here, beside me. And you know what I want (and always) to say at the end about what I'm feeling for you. Good night <3
